The New and the Old

Writing can be a very emotional task...most of the time, these short posts are not...but every now and then, things happen pushes them over the edge. To those who know me, I don't have to apologize. To those that don't, what the hell are your reading this for in the first place?

I am, by my very nature, an emotional person. Most would never know that. Many who THINK they know me would not know that, either. But there are a select few (and by few I mean less than 3 probably) that are in that elite group. Elite. What a joke THAT is. Just me being associated with anything that has Elite in the title pretty much counts ME out.

I don't know of anyone that wouldn't change a few things about their past; I am no exception to that rule. This fact normally doesn't bother me, but here lately I have been thinking about that very subject. As usual, there's always a trigger--this time a phone call--this person triggers various emotions, and this time was no different--except this time, it had been a while in between calls and our conversation moved me a little bit differently than normal.

I don't know about CHANGING things...but there are a few things I would try HARDER for. Let it suffice to say that I truly believe there a few things in life worth fighting for and this was one that I really feel like I let go without much of a fight--I am sad to say that it will probably be a topic of serious regret for the rest of my life. I try to learn from my mistakes, but this one area is more of a one-and-done type deal, where there ARE no second chances, but I can still learn from it. God knows I need to learn SOMEthing as I move through my semi-squalid life :)

Thanks for listening.